Gosh, if it wasn't for The better half(My Husband), I would of utterly, totally had forgotten about the blog thing.
it's sad, since I used to love to write so much. Not Journal style but, Story wise. For years I can't seem to muster an inkling of an idea or put words together to make sense for stories that used to drown my head.
Anyway, he mentioned it, and mentioned it, kept saying he enjoyed reading what I had posted and should do more. Well, here we are. Trying to push about the cotton balls that form my brain and write for you guys & gals who could potentially be reading this blog.
So, as of today, I am 24 Weeks and a half in the pregnancy. Wow, that's almost 2/3 of the way.
Lots has happened since I've last written about it.
I guess this blog is all about being pregnant right now isn't it. After all, it isn't called Fat-astic & pregnant for nothing.
I have quite a few friends who are at the moment trying to conceive, wanting to conceive *again* or simply have the strong desire to be a parent but cannot due to certain circumstances in their lives.
As happy as I am for myself about waiting for our first child, I always have these people in the back of my mind & heart.
I ache for them. Because I've wanted it for so long myself, I know, at least, what part of their pain is.
It's hard to watch those around you expecting, raising a family, or sometimes, terminating a pregnancy due to certain circumstances in their lives that make it to hard for them to bring another life in this world. What ever the reason is, it still can be hard for women, or men, who have all this love to give to this little human being and be unable to have 'one of your own'.
I try not to rub it in their faces, try not to bring it in conversations they are in, because I know, by experience it doesn't always make you feel good inside. You start to feel resentment, hate for those that suddenly announce they are expecting. Even if they are close friends, acquaintances, and even family members. You keep asking yourself, and God 'why them, why not me', keep questioning everything, letting this bitterness take over, even if part of you *IS* happy for them, it's the negative feelings that pushes everything away and takes over.
Many are so overwhelmed by the hormones, emotions of expecting, that they don't care what they say to who or what, they just seem to do so. They are happy, so they think every one around them are going to be super happy for them too and will share their thoughts and sentiments about it all.
It's like, being extremely diabetic, and some one putting before you this yummy scrumptious piece of dessert in your face, and they rant on how it tastes so good! how the texture mixes so well together, how moist it is BUT you can't have any or you'll like go in a coma or something.
Yeah, you feel rotten after a while.
So for those expecting, keep in mind if you have a friend, who has been trying for a while, or wished they could be a parent so they can love their own little chubba, perhaps have a small talk with them. Ask them how they are doing, make it about them for a while and not yourself all the time. Depending how close you are, how open your relationship is, ask them if there are subjects or something they would like you to skip when around them. Or perhaps, something they would like to be part of too.
Either way, having a child isn't just your life but those around you too. Some will gain, some will loose. Gaining a new family member, sometimes loosing a good friend who you loved to hang out with or play Games with but now, can't devote more time to you because they have this child in their life. Either way, be happy, but also be careful of what you say. The world doesn't revolve around one person, but around us all.
Okay, I guess I have a lot to write about today. Look at that.
So back to the 'me' segment.
So having a child is well, one of the most natural and oldest thing in the world.
Women have done it before, way way waaayyy before, and will keep on doing it for quite a while to come...Unless every one goes infertile due to some super Conspiracy type of horror...Okay let's not get into that!
Anyhoo.
I do have lots more to say but, for now, I think I'm done. Perhaps later I'll write more. but I do need to get back into it. Have a great day every one!
it's sad, since I used to love to write so much. Not Journal style but, Story wise. For years I can't seem to muster an inkling of an idea or put words together to make sense for stories that used to drown my head.
Anyway, he mentioned it, and mentioned it, kept saying he enjoyed reading what I had posted and should do more. Well, here we are. Trying to push about the cotton balls that form my brain and write for you guys & gals who could potentially be reading this blog.
So, as of today, I am 24 Weeks and a half in the pregnancy. Wow, that's almost 2/3 of the way.
Lots has happened since I've last written about it.
I guess this blog is all about being pregnant right now isn't it. After all, it isn't called Fat-astic & pregnant for nothing.
I have quite a few friends who are at the moment trying to conceive, wanting to conceive *again* or simply have the strong desire to be a parent but cannot due to certain circumstances in their lives.
As happy as I am for myself about waiting for our first child, I always have these people in the back of my mind & heart.
I ache for them. Because I've wanted it for so long myself, I know, at least, what part of their pain is.
It's hard to watch those around you expecting, raising a family, or sometimes, terminating a pregnancy due to certain circumstances in their lives that make it to hard for them to bring another life in this world. What ever the reason is, it still can be hard for women, or men, who have all this love to give to this little human being and be unable to have 'one of your own'.
I try not to rub it in their faces, try not to bring it in conversations they are in, because I know, by experience it doesn't always make you feel good inside. You start to feel resentment, hate for those that suddenly announce they are expecting. Even if they are close friends, acquaintances, and even family members. You keep asking yourself, and God 'why them, why not me', keep questioning everything, letting this bitterness take over, even if part of you *IS* happy for them, it's the negative feelings that pushes everything away and takes over.
Many are so overwhelmed by the hormones, emotions of expecting, that they don't care what they say to who or what, they just seem to do so. They are happy, so they think every one around them are going to be super happy for them too and will share their thoughts and sentiments about it all.
It's like, being extremely diabetic, and some one putting before you this yummy scrumptious piece of dessert in your face, and they rant on how it tastes so good! how the texture mixes so well together, how moist it is BUT you can't have any or you'll like go in a coma or something.
Yeah, you feel rotten after a while.
So for those expecting, keep in mind if you have a friend, who has been trying for a while, or wished they could be a parent so they can love their own little chubba, perhaps have a small talk with them. Ask them how they are doing, make it about them for a while and not yourself all the time. Depending how close you are, how open your relationship is, ask them if there are subjects or something they would like you to skip when around them. Or perhaps, something they would like to be part of too.
Either way, having a child isn't just your life but those around you too. Some will gain, some will loose. Gaining a new family member, sometimes loosing a good friend who you loved to hang out with or play Games with but now, can't devote more time to you because they have this child in their life. Either way, be happy, but also be careful of what you say. The world doesn't revolve around one person, but around us all.
Okay, I guess I have a lot to write about today. Look at that.
So back to the 'me' segment.
So having a child is well, one of the most natural and oldest thing in the world.
Women have done it before, way way waaayyy before, and will keep on doing it for quite a while to come...Unless every one goes infertile due to some super Conspiracy type of horror...Okay let's not get into that!
Anyhoo.
I do have lots more to say but, for now, I think I'm done. Perhaps later I'll write more. but I do need to get back into it. Have a great day every one!
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